Academic nightmare

Oh, shit...I nearly gave myself a heart attack. I was going through stuff from my previous paper which I'm doing in the current paper, and was looking at some numbers and thought I'd made a massive mistake in the paper that's going to print next month. Thought I'd totally overinflated my model...

Nearly died for about 10 minutes as I tried to work it out and convinced myself more and more I'd totally stuffed up and would never be able to show my face in the science world again and how was I going to tell my supervisor and he was going to hate me.

But phew! I was right, I just hadn't read what files I'd inputted to get the results.

I feel like crying now.

Academic nightmare

Oh, shit...I nearly gave myself a heart attack. I was going through stuff from my previous paper which I'm doing in the current paper, and was looking at some numbers and thought I'd made a massive mistake in the paper that's going to print next month. Thought I'd totally overinflated my model...

Nearly died for about 10 minutes as I tried to work it out and convinced myself more and more I'd totally stuffed up and would never be able to show my face in the science world again and how was I going to tell my supervisor and he was going to hate me.

But phew! I was right, I just hadn't read what files I'd inputted to get the results.

I feel like crying now.

My eyes are tired

Didn't get to bed till 5am, trying to finish the article. Still not finished, my model doesn't work as well in comparison to another as we'd hoped. So will make it more difficult to get the paper accepted. Trying some other things to find the reason.

What sleep I got was terrible. Kept waking up and was boiling hot and feeling ick. And I'm not sure going to sleep thinking about what drugs in our medicine cupboard I could take to kill myself is a good thing.

At least it's cooler today, low-mid 20s (low-mid 70Fs), rather than the low-mid 30s (around the 90-95F) of the last week. But muggy which makes me ache a bit. We need rain.

My period's probably close, my moods are up and down and feel like crying.

But lovely phone call from sangerin made me smile. And my wordsmith pene.

And mum went for coffee with my aunt and was talking about my writing, and my aunt watches West Wing. So given her some of my stories to read.

My eyes are tired

Didn't get to bed till 5am, trying to finish the article. Still not finished, my model doesn't work as well in comparison to another as we'd hoped. So will make it more difficult to get the paper accepted. Trying some other things to find the reason.

What sleep I got was terrible. Kept waking up and was boiling hot and feeling ick. And I'm not sure going to sleep thinking about what drugs in our medicine cupboard I could take to kill myself is a good thing.

At least it's cooler today, low-mid 20s (low-mid 70Fs), rather than the low-mid 30s (around the 90-95F) of the last week. But muggy which makes me ache a bit. We need rain.

My period's probably close, my moods are up and down and feel like crying.

But lovely phone call from sangerin made me smile. And my wordsmith pene.

And mum went for coffee with my aunt and was talking about my writing, and my aunt watches West Wing. So given her some of my stories to read.