It's all gone

My head's quiet, totally blank.
There's no voices, no scenes or stories, just this silence. Even when I couldn't write before, I still had scenes and talking in my head.
Now there's nothing. In less than a day it's disappeared.
And part of me likes the quiet. But the other part of me is so sad and feels like a fraud. Because if it can go just like that, it must mean that I'm not a writer, never was and never will be.
I don't know what to do with all the partially completed stories. Maybe it would be less painful to just delete them, rather than them sitting there mocking me with my failure.

It's all gone

My head's quiet, totally blank.
There's no voices, no scenes or stories, just this silence. Even when I couldn't write before, I still had scenes and talking in my head.
Now there's nothing. In less than a day it's disappeared.
And part of me likes the quiet. But the other part of me is so sad and feels like a fraud. Because if it can go just like that, it must mean that I'm not a writer, never was and never will be.
I don't know what to do with all the partially completed stories. Maybe it would be less painful to just delete them, rather than them sitting there mocking me with my failure.

A little ray of sunshine

I'm feeling slightly better. Still mostly dead, but thinking that the blankness isn't as bad as I thought thanks to my lovely friends. Just never been blank before, so really scared me.

I'm exhausted, tired and my moods are so up and down this month. My period was entirely weird so I think that might have added to it.
We're having one of our worst heatwaves on record, hasn't been below low 30Cs (~90F) in about 2 weeks, and we've been well above 38C (100F) a couple of times. Terrible heat this morning, was up to 45C (113F) in some parts of Sydney at midday, dropped since to a positively chilly high 20s-low 30s (80Fs). And every night hasn't been below about 22C (70F), it's often still in the mid-high 20s (high 70s-low 80s) at 2am.

I think I'll go and watch How to Deal. Let my brain rest.

A little ray of sunshine

I'm feeling slightly better. Still mostly dead, but thinking that the blankness isn't as bad as I thought thanks to my lovely friends. Just never been blank before, so really scared me.

I'm exhausted, tired and my moods are so up and down this month. My period was entirely weird so I think that might have added to it.
We're having one of our worst heatwaves on record, hasn't been below low 30Cs (~90F) in about 2 weeks, and we've been well above 38C (100F) a couple of times. Terrible heat this morning, was up to 45C (113F) in some parts of Sydney at midday, dropped since to a positively chilly high 20s-low 30s (80Fs). And every night hasn't been below about 22C (70F), it's often still in the mid-high 20s (high 70s-low 80s) at 2am.

I think I'll go and watch How to Deal. Let my brain rest.